shya-desu

 Starring down the barrel of a gun seems like a good idea ,until you realise the possibility of your immediate demise ;though contemplating the consequences while doing the action above mentioned doesn`t quite help your subconcious overcome its hunger for the unknown.The possibility of closing my eyes had crossed my mind ,but at that point the fact that the Magnum --pointed for some time at the tiny space between my eyes-- would not disappear had become obvious .Denying the present doesn`t make it change ,it just regresses your mind into a state in which you believe it has changed .In other words ,I was prepared to witness my own death wilst